One Year Ago...

One year ago we walked into the Center For Assisted Reproduction with anxiety, fear, and hope. We knew the odds and IVF is only successful about half the time a cycle is attempted. I held Matt's hand as we watched the ultrasound screen showing the flexible syringe dropping my little embryos into my womb. I hung nearly upside down and read my future children a letter begging them to give us the chance to be their parents. I didn't know at the time that they would both choose to hang on and bless me with their existence. I didn't know that I would spend 43 days in the hospital fighting for them so they wouldn't have to fight as hard when they were born. I didn't know that I would then spend another 42 days visiting the same hospital waiting for them to be ready to come home. I didn't know they would grow into my two adorable sons that have become the reason I get up in the morning. I didn't know I would spend hours trying to get them to giggle because it's the most beautiful sound on earth and it makes my heart skip a beat. I could never know what it feels like to love two little people so much and could never know how much they would change my life. I still can't believe I'm their mother and that I get to love them every day for the rest of my life. They were worth every second of pain, prayer, and worry and I would do it again 1,000 times. Here's to another amazing year!